Friday, March 8, 2013

New blog design!

Well I've been working on the blog page most of the day, I finally figured out how to change and add pictures and make it a more personable page than it was! I would like some feedback, is the colors to loud, is it hard to read?? Let me know what you all think! I'm excited to hear your feedback, and I was excited to see that we've had 75,000 views on our blog page!! That's awesome!! The most popular blog post was the one I did after cashy passed, there was over 8 thousand views on that post! Crazy!! Keep reading and ill keep reading!! I like getting feedback and comments to from you guys as well. It makes me want to keep writing! So keep on with the comments! It's funny cause I get all bummed when I only get one or two comments a blog post. I'm always thinking, man no one read it all this time. Lol, Im a dork like that. But even if you guys don't read it or comment, I will still write because it's actually therapeutic for me. I like talking to Cashy. I know he listens!
So I am wondering if anybody has pictures of Cashy that I haven't seen or that I don't have. I'd love to get all the pics I can of him. So if anyone has pics even if it's from a long time ago, I want them! Please send them to me! Send them to cashhydefoundation@gmail.cm or if you know my number just text them to me. I would truly appreciate it!!!

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Cashy, my little buddy. Oh how I miss you so! It's still so unreal that your gone, that your not here to touch or tickle, or kiss or hug. I miss every part of you, even your stinky toes. Why did this have to be your journey? Why our family?

I was thinking about how out of off the people I went to high school with, all the girls I played soccer with, that I'm the only one who's lost a child to cancer. How flipping rare is that? It's rare for Missoula Montana, but it's definitely not rare. Thousands of kids die each year. I think about senior year how in the school newspaper they always did a section about the seniors and what everyone voted people to be "most likely" to do this or "most likely" to do that, well I was nominated (and my bestie lyndsey Was the runner up) for "most changed", what? Why does that even mean. I was kinda mad about that actually. Some people get most likely to grow up and be the president, some people got class clown (that was probably Joey wingo, lol), so why wasn't there a "most likely to have a kid die of cancer," category? At least I could of been warned.... Or at least prepared myself. I don't know what made me think about this, it makes no sense at all. Not sure why I even typed it. Stuff just flows like word vomit sometimes. Whatever I guess. I wish I would of been "most likely to live happily ever after". Why isn't that a category. I don't think ill ever been truly completely 100% happy without you. There will always be a huge void of a hole named Cashy in my heart.

My patient tonight after she had her baby scarfed down a giant super sized Arby's meal tonight. The smell made me wanna puke a little. (Sorry to the peeps who eat Arbys, no offense but it grossed me out) Sad thing is that that meal of about 1000 calories isn't even going to give her the energy or the nutrients that she really needs to breastfeed her baby or even maintain the energy level it takes to take cAre of a newborn. Ugh.

Colty's last day at Chief Charlo is today. :( I think I'm more sad about it that he is. Hd will be attending Lewis and Clark on Monday. A fresh new start. And he better get serious because they're ahead a little in math! But he's so dang smart he will catch on fast. Even his teacher thinks he will do just fine although she's sad to see him go (so she says, lol.... That's boys a handful!!!). So will will bring his class some treats and they're having a going away party for him. So cute! The most awesome thing is though, at the new house the bus stop to his new school is right out our front door! Yay!! No driving or biking to school! He's all excited to get to ride the bus to school. Cashy you would of loved to ride the bus too. I hope you ride it with him on Tuesday (Monday ill take him as it's his first day).

Well I just wanted to write a quick note on my blog page editing! I hope you all like it and continue to read! Cashy I hope you love it to!! I miss you, I love you and I wish we were snuggling in bed together and I was waking up every hour to give you water. This morning I had an odd dream where I was like above myself watching myself sleep and Toss and turn, and I could hear myself screaming and crying for you. It was so odd, it was like I was half awake half asleep. I don't know, I'm probably just losing my marbles!! Sleep deprivation will do that to a person, (so will working night shift!).

Well goodnight my sweet boy. I miss you and wish I could hold you and run my fingers along your scar on your head. I loved how it felt bumpy underneath my fingertips as I caressed your head. Your lovely battle wound (well one of the many).
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Thanks for the sweet little surprise I found from you last night while getting ready for work. Michele was right when she said I would still find plenty of cashy surprises at the new house as well. A cars bandaid on my makeup remover towelettes. How sweet is that! I love you!





19 comments:

  1. Kali and Mike I love the new web (blog) page. It looks great and you have done a good job at keeping us all posted, considering all that you all have had going on.Cashy has touched so many people in his short life, and I thank you two for sharing him and his story with us! Stay strong and remember he will never be forgotten! We are there for ya all! Cashy you rock Lil monkey man! One Love! :-)

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  2. The new page is beautfiul love it!!!!

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  3. LOVE LOVE LOVE The new Blog Page Kalli! It looks AWESOME! I wouldn't change a thing.
    OneLove

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  4. One love! Great job on the new page. I hope you don't mind I borrowed the last pic about not giving up to remind me to keep keeping it together!

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  5. It looks great, and honestly I don't comment much but I do read your posts. I feel so much for you and cannot even begin to imagine loosing someone so close to me. You are a strong woman, a great mother and believer! :)

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  6. Love the new page, definately more personalized :)

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  7. God bless you for sharing your story.

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  8. This is my first time on your blog. I really like the look and layout! Well done! Your thoughts are clear and easy to follow, and you're right... a tool like this is a great way express your thoughts. Take care.

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  9. the new layout is awesome, fits Cashy perfectly, 1 <3 to you and yours

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  10. It looks really great sweetie! I always love following your candid, heartfelt blogs. Cashy's spirit will always be alive and strong!

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  11. It's beautiful Mama Kalli, you did a great job updating the blog. I love reading your stories and about the love you have for your little man and thevrest of your family. Keep up the good work. from a Mama in Tulsa.

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  12. Kalli, I read all of your blogs and miss Cashy, oh so much! I never say anything because I know it must all be so overwhelming. My husband and I talk about Cashy all the time with our children and they don't even realize that we have never met you all. We show them pictures and they love to see Cashy and your whole family. I am proud to say we are from Montana and you guys represent our state well!! God Speed to you all!

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  13. love it hon!!! Its a beautiful new design <3 one love!

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  14. Love it. And I love reading your new blogs every time you post. I just think its so amazing, I was kinda iffy about posting comments because I didn't think you read them :/ So now that's settled ;) It's so awesome that Cashy is still letting you know that he loves you guys, thinks about you guys, etc. I really hope Colty has a good day at his new school :)

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  15. Kalli -- you were one of my nurses in the hospital when my sweet baby girl was born -- you told me about Cash & showed me pictures of all 3 of your beautiful kids ( I think your little girl was 5 months then), I was so thankful for you then and am so grateful to you for continuing to share your love through loss. You have helped me to be the best mom I can be. The new design is filled with such incredible detail, the photos on the side are beautiful.

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  16. Hi Kalli- My name is Katrina. Just wanted to say you are amazing and from my family to yours.. We love you all!!

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  17. Hey Kali, just wanted to drop you a note and say your story has given me strength. Aug 2012 my cousin's little 9 yr old son was diagnosed with a Diffuse Intrinsic Pontine Glioma tumor on his brain stem. Basically a 10% chance of survival past 9 mths. Well this past Sunday he lost his battle. Even though we knew he was gonna go it still doesn't help when he did. Our family is hurting. I have been following Cashy's journey for over a year now and coming back to read your blog and facebook posts has given me strength. You are a beautiful strong willed person. I see that's where Cashy got his strength from. You both are born fighters. Keep up with the blog you do good work!

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  18. great page! i enjoy reading your blog, even though your heartache brings tears to my eyes. i have been following cashy's story on Facebook for quite some time and continue to pray for your family. Thanks for sharing and take care.

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  19. I love what you did here! The way you share things with Cashy and the way that you address him is touching; and it's truly moving how he still lives in your heart. And I wanna say that I like your new blog design. I'm a fan of reggae too so I can see nothing wrong with the color vibrancy. One love!
    Sage Aumick

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